I wonder if I imagine feelings. I wonder if I look for something that wasn’t there to begin with. But then there is all the evidence. Why would I spend so much time and energy on something if there was nothing there? Why would getting ignored bug me so much if I didn’t care? Did…
I am convinced that there is a reason for every feeling. Only the reason might not be as easy to figure out as you would think… Today I have been feeling miserable. Ok, maybe not miserable, but sad. And I have occupied my mind with finding the reason for this. And fighting the urge to…
What’s it even all about? Why do I do all the things I do? Is there even a point to it all? Maybe there is just a bunch of good times, and if you are lucky, there are more good times than bad. If I think about it, there is. There are not many moments…
Sometimes it all seems so overwhelming. I bite off more than I can chew, and then I sit around in wonderment over the fact that I am chewing at all… Sometimes I feel like I am in way over my head. Sometimes I feel in full control. Sometimes I don’t know what to feel. I…
…which was really surprising considering some stuff happened last night, that really did not make me happy. But then I had a nice long conversation with a friend. That cheered me up. And then me and dad watched the first episode of Pistvakt. Mindless comedy and nostalgia… Sometimes that is just what you need. Maybe…
Ok, ok… I know that in order to maintain order in the universe, it is probably not a good idea to start moving the earth around in a totally different pace all of a sudden. Let alone the changes most people seem to want to make to the space time continuum. I am of course…
I was extremely tired all day today. I think it was because I drank too much coffee yesterday and got all worked up about everything. See, I have been trying to drink less coffee, and I had managed to get it down to only coffee in the morning. But yesterday I inhaled coffee. -Do you…
They called me yesterday! I had given up hope of hearing from them since it was later than 17:00. Stupid, when I think about it… I was driving the car at the time. I had just picked up my father, and we had a hysteric time as usual. When the phone started to ring, dad…
I got up way too early today. Then I got all nervous before the interview. I don’t know what kind of impression I made, but it did not feel good… I am too tired to think what to do about it right now, because I went over to Amberion and helped him move his stuff…