Sometimes it all seems so overwhelming. I bite off more than I can chew, and then I sit around in wonderment over the fact that I am chewing at all…

Sometimes I feel like I am in way over my head. Sometimes I feel in full control. Sometimes I don’t know what to feel.

I went riding yesterday. This woman Gudrun has a horse she wants help with. She calls him heart, because he has a white heart on his forehead. And he seems to have a heart of gold too… But there was a long way there, and I got lost on my way home. It was all dark and I was distracted! =)

I think riding that horse would be very good, but maybe I will look for a ridingschool instead. Because I can’t figure out how I would manage to get all the way out there each time before it gets all dark. Sadly…

Work is still overwhelming. I know I have learned some stuff, because I don’t need to pause every call any more. I can sort out most questions myself.

But there is still so much I can’t get a grip on! I know I will eventually, but right now, it can be kind of frightening. But coworkers always help me out when I ask my stupid questions. They are wonderful! That makes me totally not scared to go to work. All good… =)

Tomorrow I will go to Uppsala for a party. I was thinking about going to Stockholm instead, since someone changed the plan all of a sudden. But in the end, I decided to go with my gut feeling, and it said Uppsala. I played around with the idea of Jokkmokk too since a friend turns 30 and has a party, but I would never make it in time. And I am not made of money just because I have a job…

So now I need to figure out what to wear and how to manage it all. =)

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